Tuesday, March 5th, 2019
If you know me, you know I absolutely love journaling. I love writing, drawing, and speaking of things that make me happy – and also keeping track of what makes me sad because that is equally important.
“The wound is the place where the light enters you.” – Rumi
This is why I have this blog, a plethora of voice memos where I ramble on and on, and way too many journals. Life is definitely a rollercoaster and it’s amazing having record of all the ups and downs. If I didn’t keep track, the majority of these moments would likely be forgotten. Because it’s usually the tiny moments that you don’t think are significant…that surprise you and teach you the most.
I brought an old gratitude journal with me to Thailand. When I first received it from my friend Lauren so many years ago, I would write just one or two things from each day that made me happy.
June 28, 2015
+ Had brunch by myself for first time.
+ Loved it and can’t wait to do it again!
That was back when I was afraid to do anything by myself. I had no idea how important that little brunch in a Denver farmer’s market would be. It was the start of finding my independence. Finding myself.
Almost 4 years later and I’ve lived in Bali, traveled to Singapore, Vietnam, and now living in Thailand…all by myself. And I can’t tell you how much I LOVE my solo brunch dates every chance I get!! Honestly shaking my head right now at the thought of how much I’ve grown since I started writing those little moments of gratitude!
Btw, here’s my favorite brunch in Chiang Mai…
Last week, our theme in our class was Fairytales. We read Jack in the Beanstalk and we planted some magic beans and I prayed they would actually grow. Nothing worse than a hyped-up science project being a complete dud! I convinced my students these were real magic beans, so this needed to work!! Within two days, the beans started sprouting and all of my students would run to the window and yell, “Teacher, grow!!”
It’s been a week and the sprouts are almost big enough for Jack to climb up to the castle in the clouds!!! They are magic beans. It has been truly incredible watching these beans grow tall…but more so, watching my students grow into kind and complex humans. Magic beings.
Today, I gave each of them their very own journal. I told them they could do whatever they want inside of them. Draw what makes them happy, practice writing their name, draw their favorite candy, anything they want. I also love the sense of responsibility these journals are giving them. It feels like in kindergarten, students have to share everything they have – crayons, toys, snacks, etc. “Please share!” is a constant phrase being shouted out at school. But these journals are all theirs – they don’t have to share – and that makes them extra special to these 4-year olds.
After they chose their journals, they started coloring. I can’t explain the sense of happiness it gave me. Planting a seed of journaling.