Friday, May 5, 2017
I’m sort of in disbelief that this is all happening! Am I doing this too quickly? Am I making the wrong decision? What if in two months (or two DAYS) I completely want to back out?
I’m quitting my job, I’m selling half of my belongings, and I will be unemployed.
Who am I?!?! What is happening?!?
Living life, that’s what I’m doing. I’ve been feeling a little off today, sometimes dizzy. There are thoughts that maybe I shouldn’t be doing this and I’m wondering if it’s not too late to change my mind.
Change my mind? To what?? Finding a different job that I likely won’t be fulfilled in. Finding a different place to live; but since rent has skyrocketed in Seattle, I’d have to move to the outskirts of town, maybe go back to having a roommate, and deal with a longer commute. Remaining in Seattle which makes me completely anxious because of the growth, traffic, construction, rising costs, and technology. Take a walk down the street and over 50% of the people you see will be glued to their phones. Human interaction is practically non-existent in this city anymore. Oh yeah, and the rain. 8 months of cold, rainy weather to have 4 months of sunlight (and that’s not even a given). Hmmm….I should write these on little note cards and pull them out whenever I start worrying about my decision. There are lots of incredible perks of Seattle and I understand why it’s such a popular place to be, but I just need a break.
I won’t change my mind. This is what I am being called to do – taking a risk and seeing what happens. Just like my job and Seattle right now, I’m not forced to stay here. If I go to Bali and decide I don’t want to be there long, I can simply buy a plane ticket home!
Quitting my job, moving somewhere new, and going along a path that is virtually unknown is called “Freedom.”
It’s going to be an interesting few months leading up to my departure…