Thursday, May 4, 2017
It’s…..official. Holy crap, it’s official.
I. Am. Going. Back. To. BALI!
I just purchased a one-way ticket for the very first time in my life.
It doesn’t feel real.
I’ve talked to my boss and HR about when my last day will be. I put in my notice that I will be vacating my apartment. I have temporary housing for the month of July. I have a place for my car to be stored, a place to send my mail, and a place for storage. Most importantly, I have my family’s blessing and support. It wasn’t official, though, until I hit “Purchase” on the flight.
I was FaceTiming with my Mom while I made the purchase – I wanted to “be with” someone while I made this huge leap of faith. As soon as I saw the confirmation page, my Mom asked me, “What are you feeling right now?”
This is what I’m feeling:
I surprisingly didn’t get very emotional; not sad, not ecstatic, not shocked, just calmness. I feel like my gut is saying, “Well duh, this shouldn’t be a surprise. Of course you’re going back to Bali. You knew it would happen, and it was obvious that you were going to go back. Going back in August gives you time to save money, to wrap things up at work, to take your time moving and going through your belongings, and to spend time with family and friends during a PNW summer. This was all meant to happen and you knew deep down that you were going to be buying that ticket for August 14th. It’s not a shock; this means it’s right. You’re not second-guessing, all you’re doing is envisioning your life in Bali. That’s the best feeling in the world. You’re going back…it’s really happening. [sigh of relief]”
It won’t really hit me until I get closer to August. I know I’ll have moments where I’ll question this decision and think I’m insane for quitting my job to go back to a developing country without an agenda. But always remember, that’s what life is all about. What’s the fun in just gliding along status quo? It’s time to LIVE.
It’s officially official. I’M GOING BACK TO BALI!